discouraged

You should probly just stop reading this one right now.  Its pretty just about me and nothing important.

i feel discouraged.  i dunno why.  i still rejoice in God.  and in his election.  i still want to seek the glory of God and point to his glory with everything in my life.  

maybe its stumbling in sin.  But i know that there is no guilt in christ.  there is nothing that i can do to ever seperate myself from christ.  and in the same way there is nothing i can do to ever make myself more righteous in the eyes of the Lord.  

maybe its convicting my brother of the sin he is living in, and him not responding positively. maybe its the fear and the knowledge that if he continues in it he is heading towards the cliff.

i dunno.  i was going to write a blog about my family here.  and about how much i love them.  When i think about them, it makes me happier.  knowing how much my brothers love me, and how much my sisters love me.  but sometimes i feel alone.  I dont know why.  It could very well be spiritual warfare.  And i could really use a hug.  I remember not 3 days ago, i was on the lake riding out in a sardine can of a boat with emily heading to the beach to set up stuff(actually back to dan because he was stranded) and i couldnt help but be overwhelmed with joy at the love of my family i have here.  I really have to thank the girls across the street.  They are so full of love, and they are such a beautiful picture of the love of Christ, and they brighten the lives of their brothers so much even when we dont come close to deserving it.  

I dont even know why im writing this.  Its not really edifying, it doesnt really further the gospel. 

i need to rest in christ's love

i need to seek Him

i need to cry in his arms

satan has no hold here

may the Lord rebuke the evil one

he has no hold over Christ's elect!